[at the Andaleh/Syldithas/N’Vea residence, two days after it was broken into]
Home.
It was supposed to be someplace safe. Somewhere you could go to relax, to be surrounded by your loved ones, to see comfort.
But as Ëlinyr swept up the ashes and shards of metal scattering the basement floor around the printing press, she didn’t feel as safe as she used to in her little house in the Green District. In fact, she felt much the opposite.
The Silence had been here. In her house. They’d destroyed the plates for this month’s issue of the Diamond City Times. (Thank god they didn’t destroy the press itself; Alair would have been devastated.) She didn’t want to think about what could have happened if she were home, or if Alair were. After all, they’d killed Robin, one of the people working with Alair on the paper, because she had a copy of it. Thankfully, she was able to be resurrected, but…
They had been here. In her home. And they could just as easily come back.
At least Alair was safe. Hopefully. He was safe enough to send that coded message, anyway. She hoped the Silence couldn’t find him in Isildar. It was bad enough that he’d decided to stay behind in Isildar after rescuing the Resistance leader. If something happened to him, if she lost him…
Ëlinyr didn’t want to think about that. Couldn’t think about that. She pushed the upsetting thought out of her mind and tried to focus on sweeping again.
And then there was that damned mask, showing up in the entryway with that note about Ithuryn not being done yet with being the Magister. That mask gave her the chills to look at. The one time she saw Ithuryn wear it, when he’d received the note blackmailing him about disclosing his identity as the Magister… he looked intimidating. Imposing. Terrifying. Not at all like the sweet, sensitive, quiet man she knew. It was unsettling, seeing him like that. It scared her.
She had watched it burn. She lit the damned thing on fire herself! Yet there it was, on one of Ithuryn’s work benches, covered with a rag to keep it hidden from sight. How in the seven hells did it come back? Its presence puzzled her, frustrated her, worried her.
She finished sweeping the pieces of the broken printing plate and the ashes of the issues of the Times that had been destroyed by the Silence into a small dustpan, then emptied them into the trash can by the stairs leading up to the first floor. The sound of her footsteps on the concrete floor as she walked, of the metal shards clattering into the trash can, echoed around the room. She found the noise somewhat comforting. The house was so quiet lately, too quiet. Neither she nor Ithuryn were comfortable staying at the house that first night – they slept in a back room at the Adventurer’s Guild instead of going home. With everything going on, she didn’t feel safe leaving the sand dragons alone at the house, so she sent them to stay with Moira for the time being. Snowball and Umbra seemed okay with staying with Moira, and were happy to see her, but Junior didn’t want Ëlinyr to leave. It broke her heart, leaving him behind, and she almost took him back home with her, but she couldn’t bear it if anything happened to them.
However, without the sand dragons, and without Alair’s printing press noisily cranking out issues of the Diamond City Times, the house was so quiet. And the silence terrified her. It would be a little better when Ithuryn came back from his errand – she wouldn’t be alone, and there would be someone else in the house, making noise. But right now, with the house being so quiet… it felt like at any moment the Silence would come out of the shadows and attack her. And she couldn’t hum, couldn’t sing to herself, to break the silence. They would hear. They would come.
She wasn’t surprised to find herself crying. She had spent a lot of time crying over the past few days. Taking a shaky breath, she made her way up the stairs to the first floor and set the broom and dustpan down by the back door before heading outside into the garden. Relief washed over her as she heard the sounds of birds chirping, leaves rustling in the breeze, people out on the streets nearby.
She sat down on the steps outside the back door, took a deep breath, and wiped the tears from her eyes. The comforting noises of the outside world reassured her, helped her feel a little better. Maybe she’d sit out here until Ithuryn came home. At least she would have some warning if the Silence showed up, if the world went quiet. She didn’t know what she would do if they did show up, but at least she would have some warning.
In the meantime, Ëlinyr sat and wondered when she’d feel safe in her own home again. When she would stop jumping at shadows, when she would feel comfortable alone in a quiet room. With everything going on – the Silence, the nonsense with the damned Magister mask, everything going on with Ulchabhán and her siblings and the other Feytouched, whatever worrying nonsense Flint had gotten himself into, and all the increasingly strange things happening in the city – she didn’t think she’d ever feel calm again, or feel safe again.